I’m having the same issue. Only difference between myself and porage is we are popping out a kid soon. However this is something she knows I have always wanted to do. I took the MSF course last week and just got my license today. We still seem to get a little tense when the subject of actually getting the bike comes up but, I have found that I made some progress with taking the class and reviewing the reason I took it. Still not there , but close.