…many years ago (bicycle), I had a REALLY bad crash in a pack that broke my collar bone and bruised a rib, along with a lot of road rash. Happened in May and took me out for that entire season. The next year when I came back, I had a hard time engaging in the pack. After several weeks I was able to be active, but I still would start to lock up any time I had riders on both sides of me. It took me three years to get over it.
Fear riding? I think if you don’t have SOME fear, you’re either ignorant or stupid. But I’m not talking about the kind of fear that petrifies you into inaction. I’m talking about that little bit of fear that makes you hyper-aware.
You know what you did wrong, so just don’t do that again. Take it as a lesson. It’s good that you’re getting back out on the road, and the fear you’re feeling is a bot normal. Like Sangria said, don’t let it control you.